Tag Archives: reality

Escaping Reality

Everyone has stress in their life. Some of it comes through work, others deal with it at home, school, with relatives, in their transportation. Life can be stressful. We all have ways of coping with it.

I discovered midway through writing my second book that writing was a good way for me to decompress from my own stressful school situation. I can’t tell you how long it took me to finish my first book. I can tell you that Books 2 & 3 of the Tree House series were penned within 8 months. Both of those books were completed during my Directing I & II classes.

directing-actors
While in the middle of learning brand new terminology, reading new plays, and scouring said material for clues in figuring out the key properties of such stories, I pretty much lived and breathed Directing.

Directing I only came around once a year. If you failed the first test, you failed the entire class. I was also in a program where I could not move forward until I completed Directing. Adding to my stress, if I had failed the test and had to drop it as a result, it would have put me below the required 12 hours of classes that I needed to keep my financial aid. I was stressed.

stressed

In addition to studying like I’d never studied before (and lots of praying), I began writing in my down time. Being able to control anything in that type of situation was almost therapeutic, since there was so little in that time frame that I had a say in. Granted, my characters went through a bunch of stuff, but it helped me as a writer.

I discovered something within those 8 months of penning the end of my trilogy. Writing helped me calm down. It mellowed me on some level to write about other people’s lives spinning out of control.

November has and always will be a slightly crazy month for me. This year, especially, dealing with wedding details. However, what I discovered in Directing classes still holds true today. I feel better about my situation when I’m penning a story. For just a few hours, I get to escape into another world. Sometimes, that’s all I need in order to find some perspective.

**Directing I’s dreaded test was graded on a curve. Without it, I would have failed it by half a point. My final grade on that test was an 87. I can’t remember my final grade on the class, but I’ll remember that 87 for probably the rest of my life. I have never been so happy for a curve before. I’ve never needed one before, and I’ll likely never need one again. So thankful Jesus was listening and granted my request to pass The Dreaded Directing Test.**

Advertisements

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

I’m Scared

A part of this blog was penned before I was published, and the other after. Facing your fears is part of fulfilling your dreams.

As I check off things on my to do list days before my release date, I’m struggling with a common emotion. I’m scared. I’m scared that no one will buy the book. Then I’m scared that the people who buy it will not like it and leave me horrible reviews. I’m scared that I’m filling the paperwork out wrong.

Overcoming-fear3

I’m scared I’m going to have a glaring mistake on page three that should have been caught during my twelve different rounds of editing (felt like that, anyway). I’m scared that I will fail miserably. And then I realize I’m scared of succeeding. Why am I scared? I don’t know what comes next.

Either way, I don’t know what comes next. The unknown will always remain frightening. But I know without a doubt that this is my calling. For whatever reason, I am called to share these amazing stories with the world. Do I want my fan base to expand exponentially, gain recognition, and have my own version of Potterhead fans? Absolutely. Will I die of disappointment if it doesn’t happen? No.

My stories have a message. My secular readers may roll their eyes at it, but the message is there. The message can touch people. The message can change lives. The message is the reason for the story.

Why am I doing this? I’m called to do this. And I’m called to present this message to the world. No matter what, I am determined to share this message. It is my calling, and I refuse to back down from it.

Though I did miss my original and next tentative release date, I was able to release my book. Just about everyone who has finished the book has only good things to say about it. The message is slowly but surely getting out there to the world.

Don’t let fear stop you from fulfilling your dreams. There will always be fear, just as there is always hope.

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized